I need to say something about my life about positive thinking. People wonder why I’m so negative all the time. They say that my life has issues because of my bad thoughts, or as one person put it, my “negative thoughts turn into negative realities.” Except they don’t.
This is simply a fact. I don’t know why it’s the opposite for everyone else but apparently it works to be negative for me. But yet just googling “Positive Thinking” reveals site after site praising it…because reasons. Guess what? It’s BS to me.
The more Positive thinking I have about something, the more likely things blow up in my face.
For most of 2016, I thought to myself “Ok, it’s going to get better. I’m free of the bullshit and nothing bad will happen.” Shortly afterward…BAM!!!! I fuck up at my job, or I piss off a friend, or something happens to my car, or a myriad of other fucked up things happens.
Even in situations that are kind of bad, If I think things will get better, they won’t: For example, the tires need to be aligned on my car… I went to get them aligned and all of a sudden I’m told there’s issues with the steering/axle/whatever and they can’t do the alignment until I pay about $2k in repairs.
Or I get put on probation at work. And I think I can get out of it, and I work my ass off to do so…then either something else happens where I fuck up or they fire me anyway.
As you can clearly see, this is why I get pissed off when someone tells me I’m needing to be positive or something like that. I’ve felt like I was a bad person for being negative, but it seems like the universe WANTS me to be negative. Because apparently, positive thinking causes disasters for me. The more positive I think and the more I think I will be OK, the more likely everything will come crashing down on me.
Honestly, you’re probably going to disagree with me. You’re going to sing the praises of positivity, gratitute, and whatever other happiness. Just so you know, you’re the kind of person who pisses me off.
Think you can call BS? Prove me wrong. I dare you. I’ve had people try to stuff positivity down my throat for years and I’M SICK AND TIRED OF THAT BULLSHIT.
Also, I’ll be either updating this article or making another with any claims/arguments I get in the comments, so expect responses.
There are many messages like this, I’m sure. But this one is mine. There are a number of you today who will be observing Mother’s . . .
Don’t be fooled. There is nothing for you at the Hollywood Walk of Fame except pain, stress, and nightmares.